Seems all I do these days is navel-gaze! Here’s another post along those lines. I’m participating in a “Get Back to Blogging” event on the SITS website (a site & forum for blogging support) and our first assignment was to repost our very first blog post. Here’s mine. (Actually, my second because the first was only one sentence long.)
July 22, 2005
Moving Again: It’s Scary and Exciting
A few weeks ago, the DH (henceforth DH to mean Dear Hubby) applied for a job in China, more or less on a whim. I thought, “Oh, that’s cool,” and then sort of forgot about it. He got replies right away and before I knew it, moving to China seemed like a plausible thing. [GG's note: Little did I know the anxiety waiting for me in the next few weeks. Liquidating most of our possessions, packing up the things I would keep at my parents' house, choosing what to take with us, saying good-bye, realizing that I was stepping off into the VERY unknown...]
China?! I don’t know very much about China, and in fact, I have never been all that interested. But this has happened before. I never had much interest in the Spanish language or culture, and then DH came along. Now I am fluent in Spanish and have lived in Central America and Spain. Circumstances like these have a way of popping up for me! [This is the ironic and sad bit. It's been hard for me to totally embrace China and Mandarin, since I felt no strong pull to come here. I feel that pull for the Middle East, and despite what I wrote here, for Spain. I'm trying everyday to love China. It is not always easy.]
So I am embracing the idea. I love learning languages, and I love to travel. I am practically a gypsy. China will just be one more adventure. I’ve been to the library and checked out everything they had at my branch on China. Tour guides, travelogues, culture books and language tapes. Ni Hao! [The amount of information out there on China is overwhelming. The DH and I continue to search for documentaries, books and websites focusing on China and even though we've lived here FIVE years, we still feel perplexed by so much! And I still feel like a gypsy. I've been an expat now full-time since 2000. I can hardly imagine living any other way.]
I’ve also learned that I can teach English in China fairly easily. I’ve already contacted two schools and they are both interested in me. I’m nervous about that because I’ve never actually taught English before. [This idea didn't work out the way I hoped. The schools were located 40km away from the airport and this meant that the DH and I would have been separated during the week. I ended up with a teaching position at the flight school, so it all worked out in the end. After 4 1/2 years of teaching English, I've decided it is NOT for me!]
Leaving Toronto will be hard, and that surprises me. I’ve always maintained the idea that I am not attached to any one place, but I have really made a comfortable little “nest” here in Toronto. [I still miss TO!]
I love my century old house. I love the squirrels that play on my back porch. I love Kensington Market. I love the Bohemia of my neighborhood and neighbors. I love the I Deal Coffee Shop where you can get the best espresso on the planet. I love Il Gatto Nero pizza place. I love the Alchemy Bakery and their fabulous baguette and lavender shortbread cookies. I love Omnivore Cafe’s strawberry mint lemonade that comes in biodegradable plastic cups. I love the Kensington Avenue vintage clothing stores and Tutti Frutti Organic Health Food Store. Maybe I am getting too comfortable. Maybe I love it all too much. Besides, there will be plenty to explore in China. [Oh, is there ever!]
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I honestly NEVER imagined we would still be in China, five years later. But here we are! And here we will likely be for another two years. Goes to show you just never know where your path leads.
If you keep a blog, I encourage you to look back to the beginning of your blogging journey. How has your life changed/stayed the same? There’s nothing wrong with a little navel-gazing every now and then!